Today, I wanted to commit violent, bloody suicide. Not because I especially want to be dead, mind you. I just want to piss someone off with the mess. I want them to regard my mangled corpse and say, "damn you, Edallia! Damn you to the darkest reaches of Hell! You've completely ruined *my* day! This is the last thing I wanted to deal with right now!"
Ali: ... actually, I understand that.
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